There is something that’s bothering me now. Since I’ve been away from school for like 4 months, I’m not sure what to expect as soon as I get back. I mean, I’m not that confident if I still know how to practice accounting. Or if I still remember the basics of taxation. Or if I’ll be able to analyze cases regarding the kind-of-law we study. I know I’m being negative. But I came to realize that I should have brought some of my books so I wouldn’t worry like this. If only I knew how not bringing one would make me feel. HAHA. I feel so bobo na kasi. :)) 

Heh! Am I still making sense? Bahala na talaga pagbalik ko. 

Actually, hindi ko alam kung anong ilalagay ko dito ngayon. I just found myself typing inside this text box at bahala na nga kung anong mailagay ko. 

Today’s December 22, 2011. 3 more days at Pasko na, yet, I don’t feel the spirit. I don’t think enough na yung mga nakikita ko dito para masabing Christmas na! I usually attend Simbang gabi, kinokompleto ko. Pero this year, ni isa wala akong na-attend-an. And I’m very much disappointed with myself.

Another thing, parang wala ako masyadong nakikitang Christmas lights and decors dito. Not unless nakatira ka sa isang subdivision talaga. (Nag-uumapaw lights and decors dun!) But in our case, we live in an apartment, and we are surrounded by a lot of ‘em as well. So puro mga building. I don’t actually feel sad about these things pero namimiss ko lang yung mga nakagawian ko sa Pinas during this kind of season. Alam mo yun? Yung breakfast at tambay after Simbang Gabi, puto bumbong sa kanto ng Rainbow Ave., caroling sa gabi, tapos tambay ulit after mangaroling. Ahay! I’ve spent Christmas here already and masaya naman. Siguro iba lang yung feeling ko ngayon. Kasi alam ko na this time, eto na talaga yun! We’re here as permanent residents of United States. (Hey, I’m not bragging.) And I know that I’d be spending the rest of the coming holidays/special events here. So paano na?

Gosh! I so miss home. My friends, my schoolmates, my best friend and my you-know-who. But anyway, lilipas din naman to eh. Nagdadrama lang naman. And I bet there’s nothing wrong with that. Wala kasing magawa. So this is just another product of killing time. :3

But what’s special about this kadramahan is the fact that we got to be with my father again. And I thank the Lord for that. He answered my family’s prayers. So there’s nothing to be sad about, ‘cause this year, we got the best Christmas gift ever!

Lalala~

Today I feel so random, so yeah, I just feel like posting some pictures of my friends I miss. :)

Here’s Tin, Alex, and Jer. This was taken at Seaside, MOA. 

This is Alex. I call her Pipit Puso, PP for short. <3

And the four of us in Yellow Cab. This one’s my favorite.

These people are awesome and I miss bonding with them. Don’t know if there’s still a chance being with them next sem. :(

Dahil hindi kame pinalad makapunta ng Cagayan de Oro, heto ang live streaming ng ILC 2011 (For the Win, Armed and Ready) para ipadama sa amin ang pagmamahal Niya kahit wala kami sa mismong event. 

Mapa Facebook, Twitter, at Tumblr, iisa ang laman - ang ILC na nagaganap sa CDO ngayon. Nakakatuwa at marame rin kameng Online Delegates na sumubaybay ng streaming. We are definitely ONE YFC. :)

I have to say, kahit wala ako dun ngayon, dama ko yung impact ng sessions. Di ko alam pero akma lang sa mga pinagdaanan ko this past few weeks.

Lately, I’ve been asking God about so many things. Things I can’t believe happening, things I don’t want to understand, and things I don’t even want to accept. But then, God told me to trust Him with all my heart. He told me that He’s everything I need with what I was going through. So I did trust Him and believed that with Him, I’ll be able to understand and accept things fully. And right now, after listening to the sessions at home (thanks to the live stream), He even asked me to put on the full armor.

Whatever it is that He promised me at this very moment, I can definitely say that I am armed and ready to stand firm against the attacks of Satan. Ready to fight!

Lupet mo talaga Lord!